Indescribable;;

Sunday, October 23, 2005:

you know what, sometimes i wish i was supergirl, a girl who knew how to handle every situation under the sun. especially when there are thunderstorms and typhoons, supergirl will know how to save the day. sometimes i wish i had supernatural powers. sometimes i wish i had supersonic memory. and even more so i wish i had ultra sensitivity. at least then i'll know how to save myself from not just the evil o level exams, as well as to deal with my emotions.

but then again. i'm not supergirl.

so maybe thats what god is for. god is my supergod. he's there to keep me sane, to keep me feeling safe. there to clear my cumolonimbus clouds away before the heavy storms start to pour. there to calm the plates when they start to slide past, move away, or collide. or even there to extinguish the volcanoes before they start to spew acidic lava. all before they kill me and bury me. and then maybe if i'm lucky enough i'll become coal. or petroleum gas. or maybe crude oil. then at least i'm useful. sigh. i dont even know what i'm talking about man. but anyway. god is there. bottomline.

did comparative studies on morals in sunday school today. someone brought up a point about how being a christian is difficult because you have to be sincere, you have to mean what you do. its not just about you. its about how the holy spirit works in you and you manifest it because you mean it. its about god, and how you want to tell the whole world and want to share of his goodness so that everyone, the more the better, can be saved. its hard. but with god's strength and his power, we all know we can do it. because we believe, we can do it.

so. chem prac tmr at bishan again. then back to btp to study. long day tmr. so i better sleep soon.

you know something? i feel somewhat comforted by the fact that god will be watching over me through my entire o level period.

goodnight.

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He
And together we sing

Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
Holy is the Lord God Almighty
The earth is filled with His glory
The earth is filled with His glory

We stand and lift up our hands
For the joy of the Lord is our strength
We bow down and worship Him now
How great, how awesome is He
And together we sing
Everyone sing

It's rising up all around
It's the anthem of the Lord's renown
And together we sing,everyone sing
-holy is the lord, chris tomlin

a shout of praise.
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